I purchased just one item in October and then nothing in the final two months of 2020. I bought a mustard yellow cardigan, £7.50 with the original tags on, from a charity shop. It took me a tiny bit over my budget but I've reduced my spending so much this year I'm still really pleased with the final total.

LAST YEAR

I purchased a lot in October, November and December in 2019.

In December my first purchase was a new black jumper from Next, £15.00, which has been worn 30 times and is still going strong. A preloved blue long sleeve tee (not pictured), £2.00, was purchased to wear as a PJ top and shows little sign of wear so far.

On the same shopping trip I bought a preloved green jumper, £3.75, which hasn't been worn as much as I thought, but it remains in my wardrobe to be worn again.

There was just one purchase in November, an orange jumper, £2.50, bought during a charity shop rummage with Sophie and Kezzie. It's been worn 15 times so far and each time the bright cheery colour has made me smile.

October bought a bumper crop of preloved items my way.

A black M&S v neck top (not pictured) £3.50. Lace top £3.00. The closest thing I will ever get to a Christmas jumper, £5.99. Also purchased for the Christmas festivities was a stripe sequin top, £6.99, but this was worn in the summer too. Grey jumper £4.75, this one is a particular favourite of mine. It's been worn 42 times so far.

The Tu Premium check coat, £12.50, hasn't been worn much (I haven't been out much this autumn / winter) and I still need to replace it's ugly button, but I think it'll be around for a while.

A black twist front t-shirt (not pictured), £1.50, turned into a forgotten purchase. I think it's somewhere in the suitcase under my bed...  and a check shirt (which can be seen below), £1.90, that was a pig to iron was relegated to the donation pile, after being worn 15 times. I later saw it in my local charity shop with a £3.99 price tag!

I wasn't sure about these coated jeans, £4.99 from ebay, but I've grown to like them.

And finally two bras (not pictured) totaling £11.00.

Final total for 2020: £205.85

Total at this time last year: £400.10

Left of £200.00 budget: -£5.85

Items purchased: 20 (pre-loved: 16) (new: 4)

My aim had been to buy just one item per month this year but I didn't always succeed. The final tally was 20, but given that some years I've bought over 100 items it's still a big improvement.

For the fifth year running I'm keeping track of my spending on clothes, shoes, and accessories with A Buyer's Archive.

I'm not sure if I'll continue with A Buyer's Archive next year, 5 years seems like a nice number at which to draw things to a close. One of the aims was to keep track and reduce my spending and I've managed that so maybe I'll just keep a note throughout the year and write a round up post in December.

I hope you celebrate the New Year in style this evening, Happy New Year!

xx

How have you been? It's been ages since my last post. An entire month has passed, we've had the winter solstice (hurrah!), and Christmas, and we're heading towards another new year (please let it better than this one!!).

I just thought I'd pop my head above the parapet and say a quick 'hello!' All is well here, if a little busy. Which seems a weird thing to say given that Andy and I have just had our most relaxed Christmas since we met. But life is busy and there are Zoom quizzes to do, nieces and nephews to entertain on FaceTime and walks with relatives to catch up and blow away the cobwebs. Work continues, for both of us, to be busy. And then there's all that cheese that needs eating.

It's been very different but it's been really enjoyable. I don't feel in any way that Christmas was cancelled, it was just, understandably, different.

I hope you enjoyed the festivities, and found moments of joy in this unusual time. I'll be attempting to catch up on my blog reading over the next few days, but fear I may have fallen too far behind to catch up entirely, however I'm very much looking forward to reading about your festive goings on.

Which just leaves me to say Happy New Year!

Take care
xx

It wasn't until 10am that I realised November 21st was Photo An Hour. Already that morning I'd fed the cats, had breakfast (in that order), emptied the dishwasher, got showered and dressed, finished a book I was reading, and had a grocery delivery.

10am. The postman had just been and delivered some crafty bits I'd ordered to make some tree decorations. All I wanted to do was make them but I had work to do... but Sophie pointed out that work could wait and realising that she was absolutely right, I turned on the heater in my office, made myself a cuppa, and gathered together my crafting supplies.

11am. Work was being stubbornly ignored. As was the housework (who needs dust free surfaces anyway?). I had tea, my favourite iTunes playlist playing (my Latitude list which consists of mostly Ward Thomas, Years & Years, George Ezra, Oh Wonder, Freya Ridings, and Chvrches) and I was ready to get crafting.

12pm. Three beaded stars made. They’re crackle glaze beads which look marvelously twinkly with fairy lights. I just needed to decide on what ribbon to use, but first, I needed more tea.

I saw an Instagram post last year that showed how to make them step-by-step and made a number of them to sell at a Cake and Craft sale, they all sold so I had none left for my own tree.

1pm. Lunch had been consumed, Andy had popped home and we had soup with a cheese sandwich. I’d made good progress on the decorations but was a little hindered by Tinker demanding some attention.

2pm. Stars, bells, beads, and pom poms under construction.

3pm. I interrupted my day of crafting for some time outside. I'd realised that if I didn’t do it soon I’d run out of daylight. Andy came home from work and set about mowing the lawn. After a bit of a wander, I set about tidying the greenhouse a little.

4pm. Socks accompanied me on another little walk around the garden. I love this, although he rarely stays in his lane so I have to be careful not to trip over him.

5pm. Wanting to continue with my crafting, I found a free knitting pattern on Pinterest for a small toadstool. It looked easy enough and I had more than enough wool in my stash to give it a go. I used up a tiny ball of leftover cream wool, which I always enjoy, it feels really good to use up woollen leftovers.

6pm. I had the required parts knitted, and just needed to add some french knots and sew it together. I had to Google 'how to do french knots' as it'd been a while, but it all came flooding back.

7pm. Andy cooked supper - smoked salmon fillets, cous cous and tenderstem broccoli - and this is what the rest of my evening looked like. Watching Strictly Come Dancing, and whatever came on after that (it was only a few days ago but I can't remember what we watched!).

9pm. Bed. Book. Boy cat. 

I'm glad I ignored the boring adult stuff and spent the day doing lovely things instead. It was much needed. 

I've fallen into a blogging lull. I guess life all seems very samey at the moment, and now that we're in lockdown for a second time, the sameness will undoubtedly continue.

I'd intended to take part in Photo An Hour on 31st October, but it was such an uninteresting day that I didn't bother in the end. I caught up on some well overdue blog reading (I've now fallen behind again), I did a little work and spent the afternoon reading on the sofa, it was pleasant enough but doesn't make for very interesting photos.

Work has been keeping me occupied. I've had some of my busiest months since I started working for myself seven years ago, who knew a global pandemic would be good for business? I'm grateful for the work and the distraction, but I'm mindful that it won't last forever.

I've been reading a lot. It's been my escape first thing in the morning, last thing at night, and during the night when I wake up at 3am. I've been making an effort to make nice meals, go for a daily walk (weather permitting), and noticing all the lovely little parts of my day (which usually involve cats).

In all honesty I wasn't expecting a second lockdown, we had a low R rate in this area and whilst cases had risen a little, they hadn't risen by much. It was inevitable that the number of cases would rise when the first lockdown was over and we started mingling again. I remember feeling at the time that restrictions were being lifted too soon, with not enough time between one set of restrictions being lifted before the next, and now here we are again.

Some people seemed to revert back to their pre-lockdown lives within minutes of it ending, something which I will never understand, the virus hadn't gone anywhere.

The news of vaccines is encouraging but these won't really make a difference until well into 2021, with the logistics of getting an entire nation vaccinated being the biggest hindrance. It's good news never-the-less, next year will undoubtedly be better.

I think the loss of summer and the uncertainty of the current situation has caused me to feel drained by it all. I'm certainly lacking enthusiasm, hence my trying to focus on the little things - Tinker snuggling up in the early hours of the morning and purring loudly at me, Socks trying to steal my marmalade on toast, the sun coming out on my daily walk, long baths, good books, reading good books in the bath, nice meals shared with Andy, discussions on who should leave the Strictly Ballroom each week.

Life certainly has a slower pace, and it's something I've enjoyed this year. The pandemic will change life, and in some ways it'll be for the better.

Taking part in Kezzie's Bloggers Art Gallery back in July reminded me of how much I enjoy having art at home. I loved seeing what everyone shared and hearing the stories behind each piece.

I left a comment on Louise's blog about how much I needed some picture shelves like hers and I admired some prints by Jago Illustration. A few weeks later Louise thoughtfully got in touch to let me know Jago Illustration was having a sale on Etsy.

I'm now the proud owner of a two of his prints. I was going to wait to post about them until I'd framed them and got them on the walls but, given my track record, that might take a while, so here they are unframed and unhung.

The first print is We All Shine On. It was the crescent moon that drew me to this one, and the words 'And we all shine on like the moon and the stars and the sun' along the bottom of the print.

The second is a landscape print that reminds me of the big skies I see locally and the patchwork of golden fields at harvest time.

I also purchased a pack of his Christmas cards too (sorry for mentioning Christmas so early in November).  I'm going to have to be really disciplined and send them to people, rather than keeping them for myself, which is what I'd actually like to do.

The warm weather already seems like a dim and distant memory doesn't it? Thankfully the last few weeks of my Wearing It All Summer challenge had enough warm days for me to wear a few more items from my Summer wardrobe.

Week 10 saw two days wearing DIY clothes, but the other days I focused on items I hadn't yet worn. I'd been waiting for the weather to warm up and the week started out warm enough to wear a sleeveless shirt, and then a knee length dress. I'm keeping the dress but the shirt (kept twisting) and the jeans (just a tad too tight) have already been donated to charity.

Week 11 started with my very long wide leg trousers. Now that I'm thicker around the middle than when I purchased them they sit higher up so aren't as trip-hazard long, but they could still do with being taken up. Which I will do, along with some mending that's needed around the waistband (a result of treading on the too-long hem).

It was lovely to wear my paisley dress again, I used to wear this a lot and it always reminds me of our honeymoon. I don't like the grey tee paired with my new-to-me stripe skirt so it's an outfit that won't be repeated. The final few outfits of the week allowed me to wear my old black jumper a few more times. I keep thinking 'this will be too tatty to wear soon' but it just keeps going.

Week 12 The dresses were both birthday presents, I liked the red one paired with jeans when I wore it but now that I look at the photo I don't like it nearly as much. The final days of the week were deliciously warm and allowed me to wear a few of my summer tops - something I didn't think I'd be able to do. It was nice to be able to enjoy a few days of sunshine. I was aware that each sunny day could be the last one of the year, and spent time outside to enjoy it before autumn made it's presence felt.

The challenge got me out of my habit of wearing the same items on repeat, and it helped me slim down my wardrobe a little, which hopefully is something I can continue to do over the coming weeks. Whilst I'm not someone who rejoices in digging my jumpers out of storage, it will be nice to continue with the challenge wearing my cooler weather clothes.

It's been exactly ten years since I started World of Joy, so I thought it would be fun to look back at my first post, where I introduce myself, to dissect it a little and add a few photos.

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Hello, I'm Hazel (Still true). Also known as Very_Hazel (No longer true). I have been blogging for the Very.co.uk VBlog for the past six months and have enjoyed it so much I have decided to branch out a little (I really enjoyed blogging for Very but it turned a little sour towards the end, they employed a new member of staff to oversee the blog and she made it very clear that they only wanted 'celebrity' bloggers, so I decided to call it a day. I had my own blog by this point and I enjoyed writing for myself much more).

Whilst the VBlog lets me indulge my love of fashion (I did love fashion back then, not that I considered myself to be trendy but I did like to keep up-to-date with what was current and tried to incorporate fashionable elements into my wardrobe) there is more I would like to talk about, discover and share (I wanted to talk about things not connected to Very, to do style experiments of my own and have full control of what I said and published).

I enjoy blogs that post pictures of real people's style (still true). What Katie Wore - one girl's challenge to wear a different outfit everyday - is fabulous, I'm hooked.

The Uniform Project is a splendid idea that takes one LBD and tests the role of accessories to the limit but more importantly raises money at the same time (I can still spend hours looking through all of these outfits). Bright Young Things (no longer live) created the LBD for The Uniform Project and encourages 30 Day Wear-a-thons which I find seriously tempting. One day I will do it... (something I still ponder).

I love style experiments (still true). Recently Grazia magazine challenged writer Francesca Hornak to survive for a month wearing only six pieces of clothing. HOW is that possible?! (Having dabbled with capsule wardrobes I can now see that in the summer, with the right pieces, that it would be entirely possible).

Another interesting experiment, was another monthly challenge, to try something every day that you wouldn't normally consider ie crimped hair, harem pants or glittery mascara. I wondered what would be the things that I would try? (perhaps I should try all the things that I've declared I can't wear?)

But the best one, and maybe the one that launched them all, was Alex Martin's Little Brown Dress, much like the Bright Young Things Wear-a-thons only on a larger scale, she wore one dress for 365 days. Alex finished the Little Brown Dress project some time ago and has gone on to do more which you can also read about on her site (this site isn't live anymore, which I wrote about in back in 2016, it's such a shame that the record of her experiment no longer exists, above are a few photos I managed to find online. I still remember reading about this for the first time, it was an article on the back page of a magazine and I spent ages looking at the small selection of images they'd featured. I tore out the page and kept it for years. I wish I still had it).

I am an advertisers dream, if I'm promised that a product will give longer lashes (they usually don't), shiner hair (debatable), smoother skin I will try it. I promise to share my trials with you and let you know what works and what doesn't. First up will be the new Lash Accelerator from Rimmel. Product tests found 95% of users noticed a lengthening effect on bare lashes in two weeks. Watch this space... (I did write that product review, and many more followed, but it's not something I've done for a while. I'm no longer trying lots of new products. I've found what I like, what works for me and I stick with it.)

My jewellery collection gets ever larger. Unlike my clothes that tend to have a classic, simple style I like my jewellery to be a little out of the ordinary. Chunky rings and bracelets being my preferred pieces at the moment. (I still like jewellery but my taste now runs more to simpler pieces. I love bracelets and have developed a liking for delicate beads, and I'm rarely seen without a Fossil watch - there is something about the styling of these that really appeals to me. I went through a phase of wearing statement necklaces but that waned, I'm now on the verge of exploring earrings a little more, not huge Pat Butcher type things, but something a little more than the studs or small hoops I usually go for.)

Read my VBlog posts to date. (These can no longer be found. Back in 2016 I discovered that all of the posts I'd ever written for the Very blog had been attributed to someone else - a staff member. When I got in touch and questioned this they said that they'd been clearing out the back end of the website, and to create space all of the old bloggers, and their profiles, had been deleted. They offered to delete any posts that I'd written if I could prove that I'd written them. I had all the proof I needed but I let it go, it seemed like a waste of my time for posts that were probably rarely read anymore. You've got to pick your battles, right? Since then the VBlog has been deleted altogether, so I was right not to spend anymore time on it.)

You can also find me on Twitter and Facebook. (I rarely use either of these nowadays, the Facebook page is still there but hidden from public view, the Twitter page just languishes, I visit and post something random once in a while. I've moved over to Instagram instead, it's much prettier and less shouty.)

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So, that's me then, and me now.

Some things are very different from when I wrote this first post and the posts that closely followed. My interest in what's fashionable has waned along with my passion for chunky jewellery and finding the latest wonder product.

My fascination with style experiments stays the same, but my consumption of fast fashion has drastically changed - something I attribute to the blogs that I follow, the best ones showed me the treasures that could be found in charity shops, the worst highlighted the needless and constant stream of disposable fast fashion, that endorsed the idea that you shouldn't be seen in the same outfit twice. These are the blogs I stopped following years ago, but I have to admit that they served a purpose, although, for me, it was the opposite of what they were trying to achieve.

Writing this blog and following blogs, both good and bad, shaped my outlook. When I started I didn't think about what it would turn into, or how long I'd do it for, but I don't think I ever believed that I'd still be blogging a decade on. Thanks for being part of the journey.

I sat down one Saturday and spent the afternoon making a dent in my mend pile. It's a very satisfying use of time. 

With every mend I feel pleased that it's an item saved from landfill. Even if I were to put it into cloth recycling I have little faith that it would actually end up being recycled. If I can mend it and wear it a little longer, then I will. 

When it comes to Andy's old work clothes - they all eventually end up threadbare, ripped beyond repair, and stained - I tend to pop them on the bonfire. After reading some stats on how little of our clothing is actually recycled I felt that burning them was a way I would know they wouldn't end up in landfill.

Anything of good quality will always go to a charity shop, or is listed on ebay, but Andy's old work clothes are good for nothing, and if I can't be certain that they can or will be recycled, on the bonfire they go. I often wonder if this is the right approach, but it feels like the lesser of two evils.

I still have a pile of mending to do, I've resigned myself to the fact that I'll never get to the bottom of it, but as long as I can do a little mend here and there, I'm happy.

I finished my Wearing It All Summer 2020 challenge yesterday. I've shared weeks 1, and 2 and 3, and weeks 4 - 6, so here are weeks 7 - 9.

These are the final few weeks of August, turning into September. Week 7 was a week of dresses. The final three were ones I had in the pile of stuff waiting to be listed on ebay, but I tried them all on first before doing so. I'm keeping the white one, it's about 5 years old and this is only the second time I've worn it! But I love it so it's staying (this could be my favourite outfit of the summer). The navy dress with what looks like a dolka dot pattern (it's actually raindrops) has a peter pan collar and a narrow band of pin tucks up the front, it's lovely. I picked it up at a clothes swap years ago but this is it's first wear. I think it's a little too short though so I won't be keeping it.

The burgundy polka dot dress hasn't been worn before either, I purchased it in 2016 and have no excuse for not wearing it, it's been saved from ebay... for now...

The only dress I'm not keen on out of these is the floral midi dress, which is a shame as I purchased this online at the beginning of lockdown, and I loved it when it arrived. I'm going to try it with different shoes, possibly add some accessories but if that doesn't work it'll go on ebay.

During Week 8 I actually went out! (you can tell by the wearing of a face mask). The first instance was just to the supermarket to pick up a few provisions. Day 5 was a photo an hour and a trip to the seaside for art galleries, and tea and cake.

Many tops worn over this week are rarely worn, the pink v neck top and black dress are items usually worn at Latitude (easy to wear and do not crease), but the blue dress is a new-to-me purchase, picked up from a charity shop on my way home from Aldeburgh the day before.

At this point I was starting to run low on clothes that hadn't been worn for the challenge that I could wear, I needed more sunny days so I could finish wearing all my summer tops and shorts but that wasn't to be...

Week 9, the weather was less than ideal and definitely not shorts weather. I took the opportunity to wear my recently purchased preloved stripe midi skirt again, which has knocked my green skirt off it's top spot, and it was lovely to wear my navy jumpsuit again.

I'm thinking the green dress is destined for ebay, it's pretty but rarely gets picked over my other dresses and I don't have the room to keep them all. The point of this challenge was to purge my wardrobe and it's worked to a certain extent, but I still have items I'm dithering about. Even though I want to wear all my clothing items as much as possible (ideally 30 times or more), if  something doesn't work I'm not going to wear it, so there is no point in keeping it.

I'll post the final update in a few days. In the meantime I've turned my attention to what to do next...

catch up on reading all my favourite blogs

make a significant dent in my mend pile

peel off all the sticky tape from the paper used to wrap my birthday presents for recycling

finally get loads of items listed on ebay

enjoy a little more sunshine before autumn takes over

make a new art purchase

discover that sunflowers come in other colours besides yellow

eat breakfast with my husband

eat supper with my husband

remember put the bin out the evening before collection

get really good feedback on a piece of work I was worrying about

drop off donations at my local charity shop

paint our front door 

What would be on your feel good list lately?

The last time I mentioned my Wearing It All Summer 2020 challenge was back in July. I've shared weeks 1, and 2 and 3, so a catch up is in order. If you have no interest in my daily outfits, look away now.

Week 4 was the last full week of July. The challenge has given me the opportunity to weed out the items in my wardrobe that I don't like, and those that aren't working. Each item is being assessed and I've already donated a number to charity and listed other items on ebay without wearing them for the challenge. Some items I picked up and simply thought a very definite 'no', and that was that. Other items I'm dithering about. 

I realised that my decision to buy only one clothing item per month this year, was partly due to not having room for any more clothes. I want to wear everything as much as I can but if I don't love something, or have a use for it, then it needs to go. A purge is long overdue.

From week 4 the green cords are going. I bought them from ebay, they're preloved and have been worn over 30 times. I dyed them last year from khaki to dark green, which I like but I just don't wear them anymore.

The other items are a mix of hardly worn, and worn a lot. The wide leg jeans, yellow maxi, and navy jumper have all been worn over 30 times. The jeans worn on day 5 and 6 are over 11 years old, and patched so many times I always wonder if they'll survive their next wash!

Week 5 took us from July into August. I decided to wear my face mask in any outfit shot taken on a day when I'd need to wear it, to keep a record of when I venture out, which as you will see isn't very often. This instance was a trip into town, my first since March. 

During this week the temperature started to rise and it finally started to feel a little more like summer again. Dresses and skirts came out of the wardrobe, and I dared to bare my arms. The khaki maxi dress has been mended, I'll tell you the story in a future post, and the skirt worn on day 6 and 7 was one of the three items I purchased in town earlier in the week.

Week 6 starts and ends with tops I bought on my trip into town in week 5. I'm not completely sure about the navy / orange vest top but I think I'll persevere. If I decide against it I have a few people in mind who might like it. 

The weather really started to heat up over the course of the week, hence the wearing of shorts on 4 consecutive days. I could've worn shorts on day 3 too, but I left early for a trip to the beach when it was still overcast, and I didn't trust it to warm up much. I wore the mask for a minute when I went inside to buy ice cream. The day before I'd been into Tesco, popped to the Post Office, and thoroughly enjoyed wandering around a garden centre for the first time in months!

The burgundy heart print shirt has been mended recently too. I sat down one Saturday and mended a number of items, which was such a satisfying way to spend an afternoon.

I'll leave this here and catch up on weeks 7 - 9 in another post. I still have items unworn (and some new-to-me items to wear!).

How are things with you?

7am I had tea brought to me in bed. Husband was off to work. I read for a while before starting my day.

8am Every morning when I go to water the greenhouse Socks the boy cat has to do a quick taste test.

9am En route (I'd pulled over obvs). I was off to collect my Dad for a trip to the seaside, primarily to visit The Suffolk Craft Society Exhibition that we go to every year.

10am Arrived at our destination, Aldeburgh.

11am Elevenses. We'd wandered around two exhibitions and an art gallery, and felt the need for refreshments. I spied a tearoom and within minutes we were seated and choosing from a large selection of cakes. Moments after I posted this on Instagram our cakes arrived. 

Mine? A spiced date, carrot and coconut cake. Dad opted for a scone with jam and cream.

12pm Beach messages. There was table full of stones, with instructions to pondering the meaning of existence and write your thoughts on a stone. We spent a while reading them.

We had a stroll along the beach...

... and stopped in to see another an art exhibition, this time in a church, making excellent use of the pews.

1pm No photo as I'd dropped my Dad off and was driving to an out of town Boots store, on my way home. Annoyingly they didn't have what I needed in stock. I took the opportunity to nip into a large St Elizabeth Hospice shop nearby. It took ages to wander around the one way system behind a painfully slow lady who inspected almost every. single. garment. I did find a rather lovely dress though...

2pm A quick pit stop on my way home. Hula Hoops! It's ages since I had a packet of these, unlike almost everything else, they seem bigger than I remember.

3pm I forgot to take a photo as I'd arrived home, was excited to try on my new dress, was making a fuss of the cats, making myself a cuppa, and thinking about eating a little more food, something a tad healthier than Hula Hoops (an apple and some yogurt).

4pm My plan was to attend to the housework but the garden sunshine beckoned. I took a new read outside with me but I didn't crack the cover, instead I sat pondering the garden tasks that needed doing, and trying to decide what shrubs to plant around the patio. There was probably a fair chunk of daydreaming going on too.

5pm I forgot to make another cuppa before I sat down, and was trapped under Tinker the girl cat.

6pm Snoozing (so no photo). What else can you do when the TV offers nothing of interest and the cat looks too cute to move?

7pm Still here. Not long after I had to disturb the cat (she was non too pleased) to make supper as my stomach grumblings had grown too loud to ignore. I made meatballs in spicy bean stew with pasta. 

And here is where my photos of the day end. I was shattered, not because I'd had a particularly busy day, but because sleep has been evading me lately. I took myself off to bed just after 8pm, I read for a while and managed to get some decent kip. I have no idea what time Andy got home, but it was after 9:30pm - the last time I looked at my clock. 

I hope you had a lovely weekend, and have some exciting plans for this one. It's my birthday tomorrow so I've invited some family members over for a socially distanced BBQ. Andy and I will have our traditional cooked birthday breakfast, only this year we're having it at home (Andy's cooking).

I hope you're well, and I promise to catch up with my blog reading soon!

Thanks, as always, to Jane and Louisa for hosting #PhotoAnHour.