During the first of week of January, everyone in the department I worked in received the news that we were all facing redundancy. This was not surprise for any of us.

A week passed before we were each told of the final decision.

The MD wanted to move me to another department. I couldn't do it. I knew it was a role I wouldn't be happy in, a role I wouldn't be able to put my heart and soul into. I knew from past experience (I'd been at the company for almost 10 years) that I would encounter obstacles and any grievance I had would not be addressed, so I decided to decline the position.

This in itself felt awful, there where guys in my department that would have given anything to stay, and there I was turning down a role and choosing to leave. True to form, they were really supportive and totally understood my position.

But then there was a twist, someone was interested in buying the department. This led to confusion, uncertainty and some very awkward situations that continued for two weeks. By the end of the third week I'd had enough and suggested my own solution, which was accepted. And so, finally, at the beginning of week four the matter was resolved.

It's been an exhausting few weeks, I've cried buckets, felt sick most days and haven't slept or eaten properly. But now it's all over I feel happy, relaxed and excited and my plan is to start working as a freelance Graphic Designer. It's something I've often thought about but the time never felt right. Until now.

Wish me luck!